back in b'lore..its effin freezing here..

what i long for..a paradigm shift. A change of scenery. A chance to get out of my own head for a few days.

A : Tell me the story about the pretty tree.
:) : The one you must have fallen out of?
A : Yes.
:) : And you hit every branch on the way down?
A : Did I? Really?
:) : Yes, you did. All sixteen times you’ve asked me this week.

At lunchtime last saturday,I embarked on the first of what seems like an endless number of steps, processes, paper trails, bureaucratic snarls, and inevitable headaches that will allow me to register my degree with the TNDC(thats the Tamil Nadu Dental Council). Armed with (I kid you not) my drivers license, passport, birth certificate Std 10 memo,Std 12 memo,my BDS degree and as many relevant and irrelavant filled-out applications as i could possibly stuff into what is affectionately called my Register Dr.Jinxed kit — I considered myself prepared for any sort of detail that would inevitably be leveraged to deny me the ability to do this in one shot.or so i thought..after 5 days and countless drives between my university and this office,i now know better..still waiting for my papers to be processed.almost 6 decades of democracy and one things still unchanged..good ol' Indian bureaucratic red tape..Happy Republic Day folks

For days now, kalpana and I have been practicing aloud the wording of my hypothetical resignation letter
“How does this sound? ‘I regret to inform you that as of next Friday, I will no longer…’”
“Not ‘regret’! ‘I am PLEASED to inform you…’”
“Ooh, I like that!”
"It is with GREAT PLEASURE that I inform you…’”
“Hee. Good one. And not ‘as of next Friday’ – how about ‘as of tomorrow…’”
“Or 9:30 AM today! That would give you time to clean out your stuff!”
“And tell some people what you really think of their new haircuts and gawdy-ass engagement rings!”
Of course, it never did happen quite like that. My *cough* politeness will get the better of me. We curtsied, we bowed..and told the boss-man what an incredible learning experience working with him has been,and how i've grown as a proffessional and how sad i am to be leaving..(sucking up justified-i do need all the references i can get afterall) and felt just the tiniest sense of ego gratification when he asked me to come back to work for him after i finished this course..

collected my paycheck(yippeee..im rich!!..for a while anyway) and scooted without a backward glance..enjoying that feeling of satisfaction you get from burning bridges you hope to never have to cross again.

I haven't slept in my bed for weeks and weeks.. always fall asleep on the couch these days

Back from bangalore this AM..rather sudden,unplanned trip and a whirlwind weekend that deserves more detail than i have time for now..
but in brief, looks like im moving cities shortly..will be spending the next 7 months or so in Bengalooru to do a PG diploma.and now that im finally done freaking out at having to shift at such short notice(yes,i do know its only a 6 hour drive from here) and leave my life here behind..well,mom,job,friends anyway..which pretty much covers my life as of now, i realise i need to get down to dealing with a few of the more practical nitty-grittys involved..telling the boss-man im quitting for one..(i do hate confrontations of any kind with that man) and getting my national registration done before i leave from here(which, let see now, is about 2 weeks away) and a few other seemingly inane but unavoidable details that upping and moving involves.Too much to do,too little time
the highlight of the weekend though was the full tension release sessions at the 13th floor and tavern..Rish and Elwin ,take a bow!
cheers guys!*hic*(or was that tic tic tic tic tic tic??)

bloddy single-dimensional blog this is getting to be..bah!

Friday the 13th...figures!!

what would it take for me to be truly happy..no,not long term happiness..more in the right now,instant gratification sense..

A back massage
A bubble bath
A day off
Iced vodka shots
Thai food
A month of Saturdays
R and L to reunite
A full tank of fuel,clear road,no traffic
An unending supply of calorie free 70% cocoa bars.

how much space is ok to expect without being accused of being unrealistic?how do you tell someone you care about that it might be alright to love someone without actually living in their pocket?..and that while yes,you're thanking your stars everyday for their existance in your life,at this precise moment their being over involved and generally in your face is freaking you out..?

secular??

please read
http://in.rediff.com/news/2006/jan/06rajeev.htm

The space between, the tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The space between, the wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep us safe from the pain..Will I hold you again
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me..Like will it rain today
We waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we're playing
We're strange allies
With warring hearts
What a wild-eyed beast you be
The space between, the wicked lies we tell and hope to keep us safe from the pain
Will I hold you again, Will I hold you...

Dave Matthews Band --revisited after a way too long
Carter Beauford on drums, Boyd Tinsley on strings, LeRoi Moore on sax, and Stefan Lessard on bass --andDave Matthews..traversing great territory with singing, wailing,growling, gnashing and sundry other noises and voices..little else comes close

Sometimes, you may think
its worthwhile to have
the other side see your point of view
and sometimes, you have
other things to do..

its been a long break from the everyday grind..new year weekend extended into bro's wedding..can barely believe the dude's married now.quite an event that was..gorgeous seaside affair..beautiful without being over the top.and after a week of celebration,its finally back to work today(groan..) but being good with the being good bit and just getting on with the sodding thing..

Big brotha's wedding coming up in 2days...
so household's been in a predictable redecorating/entertaining/celebrating frenzy for the past month..family junta from around the globe have been coming in all week..have gotten used to the idea of privacy and space being a vague,distant memory..atleast for now..
been great fun so far..music and dancing and late night chatter..sometimes cliche' does have a certain appeal..and there's never a shortage of entertainment
speaking of entertainment,something about these weddings tends to give people you barely recognise the idea that they're somehow responsible for your future and seeing you 'settled' and dispatched into the world of domestic bliss with some 'nice boy'who's a doctor/engineer/corporate bigwig from"____"(fill in city of choice from Bheemawaram to Boston) who happens to be just the perfect person for you(on what grounds,God only knows) Try suggesting that as much as you appreciate the interest they're taking, settling down aint on the cards anytime in the near future and you'll invite honestly bewildered looks and dire warnings about your reducing shelf life(noone's ever made me feel more like a jar of mayo before) and out of control biological clocks after age 24..(uhoh!certainly running outta time aren't we..Dang it!) Have scruplously resisted the impulse to slug/scratch/knee in the groin, any of these rather pesky relatives so far..full marks for good behaviour,what say? hopefully the patience will hold up thru' the rest of the week

Awesome weekend..fusht chillax-ed New Years eve i've had since God knows when..(must do the quiet weekend getaway thing more often)
Its amazing how being with people ur crazy about can make anything fun..car trouble in the middle of nowhere,champagne out of glass tumblers..its all about flipping the system on its lid aint it,baby?
Another year went by witha speed thats left me reeling..has it really been a year already?Eventful would be an understatement.life still manages to trudge along no matter whats thrown at it huh,mr.felix..?
well,cheers to '06..and whatever it might hold..bring it on,i say:)

my new years resolution not to cuss and swear lasted 17 minutes..still hopeful about the rest-

must work on will power

find perspective.do more than just stagnate

cook more

learn to swim(ice,lessons pliss)

sleep more than 2 hours a day

simple enough..